Of Realizations, Doubts and Rejection

This is the longest vacation I ever had. I mean, I haven't been this lax all my life. As most of you know that I am currently jobless and finding ways to have the ends met. Though I know that sooner or later I will land on the job that is best for me.

However, just this afternoon as I was staring at my laptop browsing some job openings I feel so useless. I just feel so helpless. I've never been this idle for a long time. I felt that my skills and expertise are so not  working anymore.

I began to ponder on why and what happened. It shouldn't be this way. I should not feel this way. I should rejoice because I have the time to rest and think of better ways on how and where to discharge my energy. 

I began to doubt myself and feel that I am incompetent and that I can not really do greater things. I am just one of those wannabee who is trying so hard to impress a lot of people but deep inside I am just the same wannabee who will fail in the end. I feel rejected. 

But.. I wont just sit here and do nothing.

I realized that:

  • I am this strong to face every circumstance with dignity and FAITH
  • I can still walk through the valley of the shadow of death jobless for with God nothing is impossible.
  • I still have this calmness inside even if the world is chaotic.
  • I believe in grace under pressure. 
  • I always find peace in the arms of my loving God.
  • When fear and doubt sets in, my faith grows more than my doubt and fear.
  • There are still people who believe in what I can do and not what I cannot do.
  • There are people whom I called friends but never really a true friend.
  • Never trust someone who offers you great things because in the end they are the one who will take greater things away from you. 
So, right now.. I am ready for a new adventure and always ready to take a new challenge. So bring it on!

37 Nagtaas ng kamay:

  1. That is the spirit, Xander! God bless you.

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  2. I always find peace in the arms of my loving God.<<< same here.. God bless xander

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  3. napadalas ang update! basta trust God always at di ka magkakamali

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  4. Yes! take it to the next level na pare ^_^

    ilabas ang fighting spirit!

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  5. ikaw pala ang nasa hot seat sa damuhan ha.hanapin mo yung comment ko don dali.hahaha

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  6. well.. i guess everybody experiences that once in a while..

    do you mind checking out on kimmy?

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  7. TAMA! Kebs lang yan. Di lang naman ikaw ang jobless, ako din. Hahaha. At madami pa tayo. You're still blessed sa madami at ilan pang mga bagay. Pray harder at iclaim mo na may work ka na maganda next time amg-job hunting ka tapos poof! Ibibigya ni Lord yan. God bless Kuya Xander. :)

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  8. Talk about positivity. Break a leg! :)

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  9. God Bless You Xander! Nice ang mga sagot mo sa Damuhan!

    Ayos ang picture pre, masyado ka yatang Vain netong mga nagdaang araw. LOL. Peace!

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  10. @Mommy Raxx- tama ka dyan Mommy.. peace talaga sa arms ni God..

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  11. @Bino- yes and guess what?? Answered prayers. I will have my job soon..

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  12. @Xan-- yeah! I fight the good fight. hehe

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  13. @pusangkalye-- hahah anong gagawin mo sa akin? ehh nakasama na ako sa eb with BIno haha

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  14. @Kimmy-- hi.. i visited you already

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  15. @Yow-- yeah I already claim it with YES and AMEN!

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  16. @Mokong-- hahaha oo nga napansin ko din hahaha

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  17. true yong about sa friend. :D

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  18. jobless?

    hmmm try mo kayang maging OFW Xander!

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  19. go lang baby!!
    treasure mo ang mga friends mo na kahit wala kang work at di ka nila nakikita ay andyan pa din pra tulungan ka. o kahit hindi naman basta't naaalala ka..

    darating din ang work na gusto mo!

    godbless u baby xander!^_^

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  20. "Never trust someone who offers you great things because in the end they are the one who will take greater things away from you."
    wow, parang may pinaghuhugutan tOng statement na tO ah...hehe...daan lang po... gOod luCk tO ur new adVentuReS in LyF!! ^_^ ajah!

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  21. oi Alexander na camwhore, wag na u malungkot.. hahaha! gigimik na tayo this weekend para happy na. okay?

    cheer up! agahan natin sa sabado para makalibre ng breakfast. LOL

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  22. waaahhh.. di ko alam kung pumasok yung comment ko..

    anyway, sabi ko camwhoring na trip mo ngayon. haha! wag na u malungkot dahil magpapakasaya tayo this weekend okay?

    agahan lang natin sa sabado para makalibre tayo ng breakfast courtesy of madam leah. :P

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  23. @empi-- oo nga ehh madami kasing tao na akala mo "friend" pero nung nagkagipitan na at naghihirap ka na.. wala na din sila. gone with the wind.

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  24. @Lei-- haha baby talaga? anak pala kita? di ko alam yun..lolz

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  25. @Hana Banana -- meron nga hahahaa..

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  26. @SOB - cam whore talaga ako.l. wahah I admit it.. and yes gimik tayo sa weekend.. haha at maaga tayo kasi ang breakfast na libre ni madam leah sayang hahaha

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  27. Oh yeah! Yang mga dramang ganyan yan ang magpapatatag sayo at magdadala sa isang bago,maaliwalas at magandang hinaharap.Di ka lang sanay na wlang ginagawa.

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  28. I pray that God will bless you with a very good job that will not hinder your service to God...^_^

    God bless you po...O:)

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  29. minsan okay din yung kahit nakaupo ka lang marami kang narerealize...^_^

    Makakahanap ka rin ng maayos na trabaho...ipagdadasal namen yan...

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  30. @Diamond R- yeah I agree with you. tama ka dyan..Di nga ako sanay na walang ginagawa.. haaayy

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  31. @Poppe Bowow - salamat sa pag bisita at pag comment. OO makakahanap din ako soon.. Salamt sa pagsama sa mga dasal mo..

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  32. Wow.. I like that. Hehe.. I'm not referring to you not having a job, I mean, the things that you are able to bring out in you, like realizations and reflections.
    I know that the perfect job is waiting for you. Patience is indeed a virtue. Good luck to you.. :)

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  33. @iamzennia-- thanks for that..yes its just waiting around the corner

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  34. Today it may feel like it's not working out for you, but I think you're gonna make it out of this stagnant moment soon. Just have faith.

    -your happy reader :)

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  35. " For I know the plans I have for you , a plan to prosper you and not to harm you . A plan to give you hope and future"


    God has plan for us , we should just learn to wait...


    I admire your perspective.

    eh di tayo na ang jobless... hehhe

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